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  Mark 8:14 am on March 21, 2012 Permalink | Reply  

  You Meant Evil, God Meant Good 

  Israel has just died – a pinnacle and tragic moment for the story of God’s people. God has brought them into safety, but not without some torment. Specifically, Joseph – Israel’s favorite son, was beaten by his brothers and thrown into a pit. His life as the favorite son was absolutely trounced and upended all in one moment. But he was spared his life. He found his way to the highest place in all Egypt! What a comeback! And then his brothers and father, during a severe famine, made their way to Egypt to seek safety from starvation, where Israel is laid to rest.

  Of course, the brothers are now scared that Joseph will punish them for their abuse and torture of him as a child. But Joseph is not like most younger brothers. He is not like most PEOPLE.  Here’s why:

  All of us have trauma from our past, just like Joseph. And we live it out in our present. I am no different – I react, and recoil from the triggers that go off whenever I am reminded of some painful memory (even if I don’t consciously remember what originally caused the pain.)

  We may know that what we’re doing in reaction to today’s event is disproportionately elevating the importance of today’s event (“You left the socks on the floor AGAIN!!???!?”) We tell ourselves lies about ourselves, (“No one cares about me, just look at those socks on the floor!”) about God, (“What kind of God would create a world where socks are left on the floor!?”) and about those we close to us.

  All of it is drawing on early life experiences, where demons have crept into our fragile, innocent hearts and replaced the truth with lies, clarity with deception.

  But somehow – Joseph was able to overcome all that. It was certainly a trauma for him to be thrown by his own brothers into that pit, but as he faces his brothers in Genesis 50:20 he declares,

  “As for you, you meant evil against me, but God meant it for good, to bring it about that many people should be kept alive, as they are today. So do not fear; I will provide for you and your little ones.” Thus he comforted them and spoke kindly to them.

  This is supernatural healing! This is the return from darkness, and into light! Some people in Joseph’s place might have made it out of that pit physically, but mentally and spiritually they allow themselves to remain stuck in that pit for the rest of their lives. To make matters worse, they won’t rest until everyone is in that pit with them!

  My question is: “Are traumas and the resulting “triggers” permanent, or can we overcome them?”

  I have to rely on God’s Word here, and throughout the Bible – we can return from darkness, trauma, pain, and move to light, freedom, and salvation. This is the “working out of our salvation,” the “binding up the strong man,” the Satan speaking lies in our hearts. And yet, if we try to do this salvation work on our own, if we set out to “bind the strong man” we will lose!  We will end in frustration (others had to help Joseph out of his pit, and beyond human intervention, and God was there guiding Joseph forward).

  But maybe the most important part of Joseph’s tale is how he views his own story. He knows that it wasn’t his doing that got him to where he is today, it was “God who meant it for good…” Out of this new narrative, Joseph is able to “speak kindly” to his brothers, the very ones who had plotted his destruction many years ago. Joseph was able to see clearly, while his brothers were still trapped in fear of their brother’s punishment. Joseph saw that God had used a horrific situation and used it to bring hope and healing to many people during a drastic famine.

  Take stock of your memories. Mark my words, they are taking stock of you.

  Take your painful experiences to the LORD, and ask him to give you new lenses through which to view your story!

  It’s the difference of giving hope and life to many others, or sitting stuck in your own pit.

   

  

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    Mark Willis 8:37 am on March 21, 2012 Permalink

    There is an old Taoist story about a wise man on the northern frontier of China. One day, for no apparent reason, a young man’s horse ran away and was taken by nomads across the border. Everyone tried offer consolation for the man’s ill fortune, but his father, a wise man, said, “What makes you so sure that this is not a blessing?”
    Months later, the horse returned, bringing with her a magnificent stallion. This time everyone was full of congratulations for the son’s good fortune. But now his father said, “What makes you so sure this isn’t a disaster?” Their household was made richer by this fine horse, which the son loved to ride. But one day he fell off the horse and broke his hip. Once again, everyone offered their consolation for his bad luck, but the father said, “What makes you so sure this is not a blessing?”
    A year later the nomads mounted an invasion across the border, and every able-bodied man was required to take up his bow and go into battle. The Chinese frontiersmen lost nine out of ten men. Only because the son was lame did father and son survive to take care of each other. truly, the story reminds us, blessing turns to disaster, and disaster to blessing: The changes have no end, nor can the mystery be fathomed. (Wayne Muller, Sabbath, p.187-88)

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  Mark 9:27 am on February 1, 2012 Permalink | Reply  

  The Strands in Your Web 

  We’ve all been there.

  Look back over your life and remember the last time you fully experienced passion - something that caught your heart by surprise, gave you purpose – a sense of mission and higher calling.  Put that feeling of conviction and excitement in your mind?  Okay – good, read on…

  Now, if you can, think back to the moment when that passion was first doubted.  When did you go from pure certitude to…maybe an unmet expectation, or conflicting evidence of how you understood how things should work?  When, after receiving that divine sense of calling, did you run up against someone of importance in your life who disagreed with you or even sought to stop you in your tracks?  Maybe it was a parent subtly but condescendingly pushing you away from your intended college major and into something they wanted for you.  Maybe it was a boss dismissing your dreams for the future of your business as misguided.

  How did you respond to that first bite of doubt?  That sting of original uneasiness with your own beliefs?

  Hebrews 11:24 –

   By faith Moses, when he was grown up, refused to be called the son of Pharaoh’s daughter, 25choosing rather to be mistreated with the people of God than to enjoy the fleeting pleasures of sin. 26He considered the reproach of Christ greater wealth than the treasures of Egypt, for he was looking to the reward. 27†By faith he left Egypt, not being afraid of the anger of the king, for he endured as seeing him who is invisible. 

  What happens to a person who has seen “him who is invisible?”  For Moses, it was after 40 years of shame and isolation, away from his Israelite family, exiled from Egypt — an exiled prince! — he had every right to be in the royal family, but he has a passion - he had a reason to buck the trend…

  …and it cost him all the status quo due him in life, but that made all the difference.

  He was not focused on the anger of the king, on the doubt of his Egyptian subordinates, or his Israelite brothers, sisters, cousins… He was fixed on the passion, the original passion that found him in the wilderness – he had such a sense of his own calling, of his own intimacy with that calling, that nothing and no one would stir his fear or doubt.

  We all go through life with a web of convictions – some stronger than others.  As we learn more about the world and how it works, certain strands in the web are broken, new ones are formed (i.e. as a child, we learn that we cannot fly when we jump off the stairs in a cape).  This process continues all throughout life, and its an important part of building a cohesive sense of TRUTH in the world.

  But what strands CAN’T be broken?  Are they all susceptible to pressures from the outside – from the wind and debris that inevitably blows through our fragile webs?  I feel that I want to be stronger than that – on certain things – I am learning what those things are – and resolving myself to those certain strands help me allow less important strands to be let go of – opening my heart and mind further to the truth of things.

  Its all about becoming passionate about the right strands in your web – choose wisely, and you’ll have passion your whole life long.

  

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    Anonymous 1:32 pm on February 21, 2012 Permalink

    very cool, marcos. i like the idea of strengthening some strands in order to let go of the weaker ones. don’t spiders even clean their webs and deconstruct them when they’ve served their purpose and remain only tatters? i’ve often thought of passion as a shallow and fleeting feeling similar to romance (not just the love kind, but the life kind as well). the further i get from my adolescence of youth rallies and church camps, the less i’ve felt this sort of passion in my faith, but i think the kind you’re talking about, almost a quieter kind, has replaced the former. 

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  Mark 9:25 am on January 4, 2012 Permalink | Reply
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  Stay Soft 

     I’m reading Exodus 8 alongside 2 Corinthians 3 today — In Exodus, its the story of the 10 Plagues – exhibiting the hardness of Pharoah’s heart toward letting the Israelites go – he just couldn’t see the obvious evidence right there in front of him – he couldn’t understand that it was him doing the harm to the country!  He was torturing his own people by refusing to listen to to the will of God.

  It reminds me of Libya’s recent dictator, and Syria’s current debacle where the leaders of the country were obviously insane for destroying their own nation.  It was a classic example of the leader becoming obsessed with their own power, and end up eroding that power by trying to hold on to it.  In Pharoah’s case, as in Gaddafi’s and so many others, it led to the end of their very lives.  Power has such compelling, addictive qualities, and trying to relinquish it is eternally difficult.  

  But I am reminded of a “hardness of heart” far more sinister than even Pharaoh’s or Gaddafi’s.

  In 2 Corinthians 3, The hard heart is not in a single person, but an entire nation.  What started with an ecstatic worship experience at Mt. Sinai, where Moses was so close to the glory of God that his face had to be covered with a veil, as it was shining with glory!  Such was God’s glory that the Israelites asked not to be put it it’s presence for fear that they might die.  After all, look what happened to Pharaoh!

     Overtime, however, the hardness of heart creeps in like plaque, undoing the raw, beautiful experiences that brought us to the convictions we hold to today.  The hardness of heart in Israelites case feels more like the ebb and flow of the ocean on the rocks – at first it’s effects are imperceptible, but overtime, it’s power over stone is undeniable.

     In my life, the “hardness” I experience looks more like the Israelites’ picture of the problem, rather than Pharaoh’s.  It is the slow erosion of previous joyful worship experiences, of my earliest convictions, and sense of orientation.  It amounts to a casual walk through the woods- where the paths continue to wind and turn; at first the journey is light and enjoyable, but soon becomes a frightening, disorienting maze without end.

  So!   Hold on to your heart.  Hold on to hope!  Cynicism and doubt are a relentless downpour in our world.  Check your sources of input – do you watch nothing but the news?  Do you read anything but doom-and-gloom?  Then pick up a book of poems!  Pick up the Gospels!     Keeping your heart soft is possibly the most important task on earth, and its a daily habit.

  

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    Jay Abels 12:33 pm on February 1, 2012 Permalink

    Have you ever wondered why we always call them “The 10 Plagues”?   In the biblical text, they are more often referred to as marvels and wonders.  I think we may identify more with the Egyptian slave holders than we do with the slaves that God freed through the wonders that he did in Egypt.

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    Mark W 1:27 pm on February 1, 2012 Permalink

    Wow, very true!