Since returning from Chicago I’ve got to be honest with you - it has been hard for me to focus on very much. Even important things, like getting my class readings done, writing posts on this blog, and finding inspiration in my prayer life have just simply not had the same energy attached to them like they normally do. At one level, it might just be me becoming listless - thinking too much about the future and not focusing on where I am right now. I’d say that’s probably part right, but I’d say there is a deeper, more foundational reality happening here.
My friend once told me that the Evil One works feverishly to accomplish three goals in the hearts of those who have committed to live on journey with Father; they are to “distract, discourage, and disable” God’s followers. (An alliteration! Just like any great sermon!) I can see these things creeping into my life, and masking the abundant, full life that Christ has already given to me.
Maybe you’ve been in my shoes? Distraction starts with the pangs of boredom. You simply don’t have the interest in picking up God’s Word, or going for a walk with him, or whatever you and God have found yourselves enjoying lately. For me, I’d rather check out the latest info on movies, video games, and sports on websites, or pour over all the blogs I love to read, or have a ROOT CANAL or ANYTHING to just get past this boredom! It is the temptation of being over-stimulated that brings on my distraction.
Over time, this distraction leads to discouragement. Even before my trip, I was feeling a distance from Father that made me uncomfortable, and now its just down right saddening. I just haven’t had the energy to even reach out to him for help - almost like it is just more trouble than its worth…than I’M worth. As I’ve gotten to know drug addicts, I’ve been amazed how similar this sensation of discouragement is, especially for those who have committed to following Christ. I wouldn’t doubt that this is the same workings of the Enemy.
Finally, Christ-followers are completely neutralized when they are disabled. The Christ-life is supposed to be interwoven with freedom for the journey, but when a believer is consistently discouraged, he will eventually lay down his cross and sit idly on the side of the road. What else do you think burn out among ministers and church leaders is? What about people who “renounce the faith”? They have been cut off at the knees - their giftings stifled. I’m not there yet, but unless I seek God’s shalom, I could end up there fast.
Just writing about this is helping, but I am still in the ditch. I need HIS encouragement, and his engagement so the Enemy doesn’t have a chance to get a foothold. He is not worth my time.
